Broken and Abused. Deceived and Betrayed. Confused and Hopeless. Frightened and Angry. Hurting and Weeping.
These words describe my life just 6 months ago. How could a 20 year marriage end in such destruction? How did it happen? What had kept me from seeing the manipulation and abuse? Did I really live that? I was at the mercy of a man, completely under my husbands power, he sought to destroy me inorder to conceal his sin. God broke the chains and freed me from the prison I had been in for so long.
I am a child of God’s mercy. How did God do it? He sought me, he called me to himself so he could rescue me from my pain and misery, this is how my God works. Do you know my Jesus?
In my darkest hour, Jesus protected me. He picked the perfect time to fight the battle that was seeking to overtake my life. The sickness of a man, my husband, sought to possess and consume my life and my children’s future.
Oh God of Mercy, I love you. Each day with you is life, hope and anticipation. Your mercies are new every morning.
I don’t take for granted that my children are safe now. Never will I forget how my God loved me when I was too broken to pray to him, too lost to seek him and too confused to want him.
Faith is strengthened when you no longer have the desire to live and a loving God takes the reigns of your life and delivers you to a place of healing. My God rescued me. I am overcome with awe and gratitude that I was that important to my Heavenly Father.
Whether you know that Jesus is our Savior or you are just trying to get through each day on your own. Please know that you are never alone. God is near to the broken hearted. God rescues his children. Never let lifes trials keep you from crying out to the Only one who can help you. Call on Jesus. Just say his name and he will abide with you in your darkest hour.
Each trial that we face makes us more aware of our need for God’s provision. Mercy was God’s provision just for me when I had lost all hope, joy and faith that I could go on living. Anxiety, fear and anger had consumed me. Death was lurking at my door, I prayed God would release me from my existence. I couldn’t fathom how I could continue in a loveless marriage with a man who chose to neglect his calling to be a husband to me and a father to my children.
There is so much living to be done…God never left me. He didn’t let death leave my 3 children without a mother. I am healing everyday and each breath I take is a sweet reminder that Jesus loved me so much that he removed me and my children from the existence that sought to suck the life and breath out of us.
Breathe easy, there is life after the storm. My life is a testimony to the love of God. I would be happy to pray for your situation. I know that God hears our prayers!!!
